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Caged and Alone

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 17, 2009, 2:46 AM
  • Mood: Gloomy
I used to be alright with not having a car of my own, cause before, whether or not I got to go anywhere was kind of irrelivant. But it just seems like the longer I go without a mode of transportation, the more I feel like I'm chained to a post with no choice in the matter. I always feel like I'm on my knees half the time, hoping and wishing that someone will have a reason to go somewhere, and take me along.
I can't do that anymore! Not only because I'm starting to feel suffocated by my own dependancies, but also because nothing drives me more insane that not being able to help myself when I need something. Or even if I just want to get up and go drive around for no reason. Sometimes it makes me want to just pull out my hair, because I don't want to have to wait until its conveniant for someone else.
And most of this is just bitching and ranting, I've just hit my boiling point and I need to let it out or I'm going to snap at someone. I was told that I'd be getting my sister's car sometime in July, but for some reason the month was pushed back to August, so I don't even know when I'm going to have my ticket of freedom, and that irritates me even more! I hate not knowing! Its right up there with not being able to do things for myself! Augh!
Granted my list of things that are just irritating me to no end is longer than just this, but its all just piddily shit that really doesn't matter in the grand scheme.
But all in all, I'm just so tired of feeling like my life and my plans are on hold until someone is able to give me the transportation that I need to do those things. It makes me feel cut off and completely alone like I'm on a shelf until someone feels like taking notice.

And just so everyone knows, I don't think the world is coming to an end, I don't think that I'm uncared for or even second rate... I just need to bitch, and since its almost 4 am, there's no one that I can even talk to right now, and its depressing. So when all else fails, there's the internet. The ultimate place to blow off steam.

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Comments


how have you been lately gorgeous?

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There's a shortage of perfect breasts in this world. It would be a pity to damage yours.

Hello. My name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die!
Oh things have been going well... stressful at times, but when is life not like that at times... how about you?

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Step away from the Java, and no one gets mentally mauled!
pretty much the same. went about a week or so ago to winter haven and hung out with steven. it was pretty fun. But now its back to the usual grind.

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There's a shortage of perfect breasts in this world. It would be a pity to damage yours.

Hello. My name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die!
well I'm glad you got to spend some time with steven :)
Always good to keep in touch with people ^_^

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Step away from the Java, and no one gets mentally mauled!
Hey, I've been scrolling through your gallery, and fuck me, your attention to detail is stunning.
I would love to color any of your art pieces, if Im allowed to, ofcourse I will give you all the credit for the drawing, link and bla bla. If I can get your permission to do that, do you have any drawing you would like to see colored?

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KK, thxplzbye.
Haha, well thank you, I'm very flattered :)
And I give you permission, I only ask that you link me the finished work so that I cAn see it :)

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Step away from the Java, and no one gets mentally mauled!
Very well, I'll get back to you on this when its done. :)

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Black Round Kitty Productions
By the most sane insane person on this earth.
KK, thxplzbye.
I do, and I actually have a journal with the prices somewhere around here...
I'll have to look

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Step away from the Java, and no one gets mentally mauled!
I found it.It say's 15 for colored one.I'm not sure how to get a refernice for the charter i would like to have made but i'll see what i can do.

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Lo there do I see my father.
I see my mother, my sisters and my brothers.
I see the line of my people back to the beginning.
Lo they do call to me, they bid me to take place among them in the halls of Val Halla,
where the brave will live forever.
Sounds like a plan, my friend :)

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Step away from the Java, and no one gets mentally mauled!

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