My brain hurts...well.. Everything hurts, actually. I've been through a lot the past few days.
For starters, I'm a little bit depressed... kinda in shock too, cause yesterday my nieces were holding my mice and one dropped on the floor... Sadly my mom's dog was in the room too and he got ahold of it. I was scared half to deal by my oldest niece screaming bloody murder, I turn around and I see my mom's dog with a mouse tail hanging out of his mouth.
I've never moved so fast. The cat was in my lap and I ended up throwing her across the room in attempt to save the poor mouse, but by the time the dog let it go, the poor thing was in so much shock it was pale all over. It died in my hand.
I had to explain death to my seven year old niece that day with my mom, trying to make her calm down from her extreme emotional fit. It wasn't very fun. Not to mention hard to not ball my eyes out myself when I'm trying to make her feel better.
I put the poor thing in a box and put it in my room to hide it from my niece. From there I got to break down for a few minutes and kind of let out of own emotions before going back out. Now I'm just in shock from it all. I haven't had a pet death in years, so it kinda shook both me, and my niece up.
That night I made her a little "feel better" card with a picture of the mouse with little wings, she really liked it.
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Then yesterday was my mom's birthday, so we had kind of a field day, going here and there to get the cake and the flowers my brother send my mom and sister for mother's day. We got some movies to watch, and did this and that.
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I'm frusterated cause I had gotten some crickets from the pet store two days ago and ended up bringing them home, only for them to die within like... 3 hours of my having them. They friggin drowned in the water drop offs from the water dish I tried to set up. Then the ones I managed to save ended up dying anyway. So then my poor dragon doesn't have any live food to eat, and he prefers that over the dead stuff... and even THAT I couldn't give him! The dead crickets I had gotten earlier were molding. I mean holy crap! Why will nothing woooork?!
So yeah, I'm just gonna buy in bulk from now on, online, and try to not kill them. Plus the pet store crickets are friggin expensive!! 12 cents a cricket. I got 1,000 for 19 bucks. Not much to think about there.
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Then my entire left side has been hurting. My muscles are so tight that I can hardly bend my neck, or use my left arm very well. I feel so gimpy cause of it, and its made me tired and kinda grumpy. I don't like it. Thankfully I have a doctor for a mom and she usually has, or knows of medications that will help a lot! So that's been helping some, but its still very sore.
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I've been doing a whole lot of research on the internet as of late. My brain feels like its going to 'splode from reading so much random crap. First it was info on iguanas, now bearded dragons, crickets and the health, up keep and handling of all three. Then the research on the animal rescue shelter I plan to eventually start up. Reading up on what it would take to start one, different places I could help out and how to get funding and what not for it. Theeeeen, since everyone says I should go into veterinary medicine, I have also been looking up schools in both Colorado and Texas. I've made more emails in one night than I have in a year! (And not just to the colleges, either)
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Though I cannot complain too much, I just enjoy doing it anyway Its just something I happen to do well. But lots of good things have happened. I got my beardie, I'm having more contact with some of friends.... I got rid of a few pests too. Thankfully. Though I plead ignorance when I'm not online or on WoW! I am not guilty of anything!
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But yeah, I just have a whole lot on my mind, I'm restless yet tired as hizzy cause I hurt. I want to do a million things at once but at the same time nothing at all. Blech. Life can be a bitch sometimes.
Anyway, I'd like to thank everyone who's given me support, and those emails with colored pictures of mine...and... just... rawr It made me smile ^_^







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